Yes, well because my mom says i have to learn to forgive, and that im no one to judge him no matter what he did. That God will take care of that. And that i need to stop having that hateful feeling towards him, so much hate in my heart and what not because then ill never be in peace with myself. But yea thats pretty much why im working on things, slowly. Its not as easy as people think it is, to go from one day to another to forgive this person. The person thats made me the way i am , GAY, miserable, and i id be lieing if i said this wasn’t the reason why i can’t be around intimedating guys, or even talk any guys .

Well at the the top of my head id have to say, that they judge me because i refuse to talk, see, or have anything to do with the man that destroyed my entire life, and made me the person i am TODAY. Or for  being FAT .